i wake up and decide what i want to do. that's usually a shower and some grub. sometimes no grub. then i check my e-mail. that's what i do. sometimes i'll draw, perhaps i'll play some tennis, or go outside ... i dunno. then i check my e-mail. i get so excited sometimes when amazon sends me electronic coupons and new book recommendations. it's not sad...it's nothing to judge. it's just life right now. simple. basic. music makes minutes pass quicker. check my e-mail. still nothin'. friends mean more than money. always thinking ... sometimes writing. always growing, sometimes slower than others. i wake up and have nothing to do. what and how i fill my days is up to me. i don't know how i've gotten into this situation or how to get out. or if i want to get out. or if i should just ride the ride.
talking. negativity. false negativity, made up hatefulness and assumed distrust. it's weird. but always ok by the time i fall asleep.
then i wake up.
sometimes i write a blog.
then i check my e-mail.
it's weird when your life is your work. or your work is your life. when there's no separation between personal growth and business growth ... it's gets strange. as an artist i understand that the more suffering and confusion i go through the better my art will be but it's hard to comprehend that when you're sitting right in the middle of crap.
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